Angel Healing

A breath takingly beautiful experience recently happened...

I had an angel healing, thru meditation, and a marvellous healer.

Feelings of elation, wonderment and beauty and pure love....

wrapping warmly around me, safe, loved, cherished...

Thankyou Ellie Blessed Be.

Naturally spirals

I love watching the water, the waves calm me....

wandering, investigating, collecting, poking....

naked toes dipped into arctic water....

in winter...

theres not another soul around...

i can breathe....

Public Art and Fairy Penguins

Been working on a public art project with the divine Victoria Nelson, my art teacher, and a very special friend....

the sculpture will consist of 3 large bronze panels, on a peice of granite, to be placed just outside Grantville, Victoria Australia.
I felt proud to be part of this process, ...

(my job was to smooth the lumps out!)

Miss Vic has been a dedicated islander on Phillip Island for over 30 years, not only in the Arts and teaching, but everywhere... from shearing sheep, and working at the tip to nurturing wildlife, and saving shearwater birds, to protecting our most precious treasure here on the island... the fairy penguins. ....

Vic has now relocated to another coastal town, and i will miss her dearly.

Bye Vic, thankyou for EVERYTHING you taught me.

Rebel Rebel

Rebel Rebel 1mx 1.5m canvas in oils

unfinshed in pics...waiting for some good light...will post asap...
A painting would usually take me a few weeks to a few months,

this one took a day.
i needed to get all these emotions out of me, so i threw them on a canvas, melted into it, getting totally lost in my painting...

its raw, and its probably my best work yet.
now i understand, that it doesnt have to be about painting a symbol, or a flower, or a nude....

its about how the painting feels, how it vibrates out to the veiwer, the energy that enimates. i knew this... now i TOTALLY GET IT!
This is my experience, its my emotions smeared around in colour, its

my hurt, my pain, my release, my love.

it was never meant to be about him ... yet its all about him

Adventure bound

My biggest boy left home this weekend, city bound for more adventure than what a little coastal island can offer.

Always been adventurous this one, fearless, brave, mischievous, gentle.


We grew up together, i had Jamie at 18, hes now 19 and almost a man... hate to sound all cliche... but where does it go, all that time,
it flashes in a blink of an eye, a life time in a nano second.
he has taught me so much more about life, than i have taught him....

I don't feel as if i have lost a son (as my mother put it).
No longer do i have to pick up his soggy towels, or wash his clothes, wake him up after lunchtime, or piss and moan at him to put the rubbish out or do the dishes.... AND i don't have to keep feeding him, (bottomless pit this one!) no more stupid arguments and grumpiness and bickering...yeahy!

I will miss his Jamieness, his smiles, and his infectious laughter, the smart arsed comments that make me giggle, his naughtiness, the sound of his voice and his presents in house and of course....his big warm cuddles, he calls me mumma bear, and i like that.

Actually I am really excited about the next phase of our life journey together...

I let him go with love, knowing i have been the best possible mum i could be, and have instilled as much goodness, morals and love as i could cram in there... I'm excited to see what unfolds in life for him, I'm excited to see how he matures and grows in the future, and what adventures he gets up too...


New beginnings
Always my baby
Love you Jamie

it was coming....

There was an odd day a few weeks back, a strangly warm sunny afternoon for winter, i remember getting out of the car, walking to the front door, enjoying the sunshine,

and then i felt it...

the wind, gentle yet strong...

and i heard that voice in my head...

the winds of change are coming...

i know this wind, i have felt it before,

i asked for the changes coming to be painless and positive ones.....

Then i quickly dismissed it, and told myself i was just being silly, and giggled out aloud.....

but deep down .... i knew it was coming.

Does anyone else have these experiences or am i the only "kook"?

i got lost

I got lost, really really lost after the last solstice, i have never suffered from depression before, it just kind of crept up on me ... got me from behind when i wasn't looking.
Came over like a big dark cloud, and stayed for a while.

As the solar eclipse passed, i hung on to what was precious in my life, my boys, my partner, my art, my health, my sanity... then they started to slip away...

Painting.... my passion became a struggle.
Pap test reveals pre cancerous cells,
Fibroids have invaded my womb,
Doctor tells me i have depression, anxiety, and complete exhaustion, prescibes anti depressants...
Have to have time off work to get fixed...no work = no money
My big boy leaves home.... the same weekend i found out my partner has been with another woman.
Sanity slips away
OK universe...how much do want to squeeze into 10 days! ok, maybe it was over a month, but felt like a really short amount of time.

ENOUGH!

Crap!... just re-read my last 2 posts.... didn't see that coming!