the sum of all of my very own choices...

This has been repeated to me over and over in the last week, .... 

firstly it was in a movie i was watching , then in a magazine article, then in a conversation with a friend today, even in an art blog i was just reading...

over and over its coming up..

so universe...OK, ... i see you, i acknowledge you.. i get it!

 "I AM the result of every single choice i have ever made...

right here... right now"...

 my life, my art, my job, my income, my body, my creativity, my diet, my children, my non existent love life, where i live...

 is all a result of every... single.... small.... daily ....sometimes barely a thought..... choices i have made... not even the BIG ones... its the little ones along the way... every little one...

... i am now  going to make good positive choices, and put more thought into the little choices i have...

  i am grateful for having those choices in the first place... 

Angel Healing

A breath takingly beautiful experience recently happened...

I had an angel healing, thru meditation, and a marvellous healer.

Feelings of elation, wonderment and beauty and pure love....

wrapping warmly around me, safe, loved, cherished...

Thankyou Ellie Blessed Be.

Naturally spirals

I love watching the water, the waves calm me....

wandering, investigating, collecting, poking....

naked toes dipped into arctic water....

in winter...

theres not another soul around...

i can breathe....

Rebel Rebel

Rebel Rebel 1mx 1.5m canvas in oils

unfinshed in pics...waiting for some good light...will post asap...
A painting would usually take me a few weeks to a few months,

this one took a day.
i needed to get all these emotions out of me, so i threw them on a canvas, melted into it, getting totally lost in my painting...

its raw, and its probably my best work yet.
now i understand, that it doesnt have to be about painting a symbol, or a flower, or a nude....

its about how the painting feels, how it vibrates out to the veiwer, the energy that enimates. i knew this... now i TOTALLY GET IT!
This is my experience, its my emotions smeared around in colour, its

my hurt, my pain, my release, my love.

it was never meant to be about him ... yet its all about him

Winter Solstice

The darkest day, the longest night, a completion of the cycle of seasons, birth, death, rebirth...

At 3.46pm 21st June 2009 the sun was at its most northerly point for the year... from this moment onward the shadows retreat into the underworld and slowly the sun awakens and day by day grows stronger...
My journey turns inward searching for my own inner light, as my cycle comes to an ending, i shed some tears, and let go of old worn and tired out personal clutter... so that my cycle may start afresh, my spirit shine and grow stronger with the light.

What do you dare to dream?
What do you dare to create?

How bright do you dare shine?

Tingly with anticipation of new possibilities, excited and welcoming of new adventures yet to be had, creations yet to be sewn, plant bits yet to be boiled.... i honour the darkness, for with it, it brings the light.

Looking up

outside layers peel... old leaves fall... dead wood drops....

blossoms burst out, new shoots form, growth begins,

it all happened when i wasn't looking...

on my easel...

with an exhibition in september, id better get on with it....

Been painting spirals all year, dont know why...

must look into that a bit more...

going with the flo...

just a little secret between you and me...

i paint with my fingers, dont like using a brush, love getting mukky, love feeling the paint blend and move under my fingers...

the sensation takes me away into that special place, where my spirit likes to journey, where its all quiet and still, i can hear my heart beat...

Inspiration came...

Painting was high on my agenda today, as only a week of school holidays remain. My aim over the holidays was to paint and paint and paint and catch up with my art journal for tafe, my intentions have been good but it just hasn't happened as planned.

I did a bit more work on the dancing soul painting, and i just got so frustrated, i have the look of it in my head, and getting out thru the brush and on to the board is proving to be very challenging.

So... i went for a walk along the beach to shake off that self doubt stuff and think about the what, why and hows to do with the my painting.

I asked the great spirit for a bit of inspiration...

I came home, fed the ducks, and turned around to see the most beautiful clouds!

My heart raced, i was so excited, ran in to grab the camera to snap this shot.

Now, i just have to work out how to illuminate my painting like that!

Sure is pretty!

I Thank the Great Spirit for the beauty i see around me, and my inspiration.